Brittani Boren Leach and son Crew.Photo: Brittani Boren Leach/ Instagram
Brittani Boren Leachis taking the stages of grief following her son’s death one step at a time.
“I can usually keep my feelings at bay during the day because I can easily distract myself. But in the evenings they hit me the hardest,” Leach, 29,captioned the heartbreaking imageon Thursday. “I’m really sick of being a part of this stupid ‘club’ that no one wants to be in.”
Leach went on to admit there was “SO much” she wanted to address about how her candor over the yearson her YouTube channeland social media relates to how she’s handling the recent tragedy, saying, “I’ve always shared openly about motherhood here on Instagram. It’s just natural to me, to express my emotions and grieve openly.”
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And her experiences have left her little tolerance for negativity from outsiders.
She also took the time to recognize those of herfans who have offered their support: “I do want to say THANK YOU to SO MANY OF YOU, for helping me get through this with your countless thoughts and prayers.”
“I’ve been living off of coffee and GrubHub thanks to so many kind people, and it is my mission going forward to bless anyone who may find themselves in my shoes one day,” Leach said. “And I hope you never do. ?#crewscrew”
“We will always feel like we are missing a piece of our family, because we are,” Leachadded in the caption. “And until we get to Heaven, I know he’s smiling, laughing and playing at the feet of Jesus.”
source: people.com
