From topping theBillboard200 chart for seven consecutive weeks to presenting at the 2023 Grammys,SZAhas had quite the year.
Still, as the “Kill Bill” singer explained in a newNew York Timesprofile, she wasn’t always so certain as to what her life’s plan would be.
The star, 33, opened up about her rise to fame, which began not with a record deal but with an ill-fated stint at Delaware State University, where she planned to major in marine biology.
Though SZA said a college education was something that her parents had always expected from her, her time as a student didn’t last long.
“I drank Malibu and smoked weed every day. And slept,” she said.
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The Grammy winner estimates that she was “easily working 14 hours” each day — but says the gig was busted after her older sister Panya Rowe found out and alerted their mother, Audrey Rowe.
“My sister got my ass,” SZA explained. “[At the strip club] there was a banner of me with like, a bottle of Hennessy, next to a pole. It was bad… My sister is a cretin.”
With college now in her rearview, SZA struggled to find direction, and at the behest of Audrey, left her family home to try and figure it out.
It was the period of uncertainty and the lack of clarity that followed that helped inspire SZA to kickstart her music career, which exploded with the release of her debut albumCtrlin 2017.
“When I wouldn’t do the college thing they wanted, my mom kind of insinuated that I had to like, get out,” she said. “I started staying on people’s couches, and vibing aimlessly. That sent me into a crazy depression but also lit a fire under my ass.”
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Looking back, Audrey told theTimesthat “the arts would not have been my choice” for her daughter’s career path — but that she’s now grateful SZA bucked tradition and did things her way.
“I wish I knew then what I know now about listening to what your child has a passion for, and supporting that, whatever it is. It’s so hard to follow your own dreams,” she said. “So many of us abandon it very young, especially if the people that we respect and love and trust think we could or should be doing something different. I’m so glad that she didn’t listen to me.”
SZA — whowon her first Grammy last yearalongside Doja Cat for “Kiss Me More” —talked to PEOPLE in Januaryabout her new albumSOS, and the way she’s only recently learned to embrace who she truly is — even if that means being a “bitch.”
“Right now I’m just entering my era where I am accepting that I might be a bitch, and that’s OK,” she said. “Not all the time, but I’m not a bubblegum sweetheart and that’s OK. I’m OK with also being the villain, I’m OK with speaking my mind and just being who God designed me to be.
She continued: “I can’t be sad just ‘cause I’m not a sweetheart. I feel like I’m multifaceted, I can be really sweet, I can be really vengeful, I can be violent, I can be nurturing and all these things.”
source: people.com
