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Jamie Otis Rainbow Baby day

Otis, 35, shared an emotionalInstagrampost Monday to mark the national holiday, speaking about miscarriage and her children. TheMarried at First Sightstar shares daughterHenley Grace, 4, and sonHendrix Douglas, 15 months, with husbandDoug Hehner. Otis touched on the “many pregnancy losses” she had suffered, includingthe loss of their son Jonathanat 17 weeks in 2016.

“I’ve never wished for my children to stop growing up or to stay little forever. I thank God every.single.day that they have been able to grow big & strong because their older brother, Johnathan, wasn’t able to.👼🏼💙⁣,” Otis began her caption, posting throwback photos from her rainbow pregnancies.

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Jamie Otis Rainbow Baby day

Commenting on her daughter’s National Rainbow Day birthday, the reality star added that she doesn’t think “it’s a coincidence our Gracie girl was born on the same day that honors angel babies in heaven while simultaneously celebrating rainbow babies on earth⛅️🌈.”

Jamie Otis Rainbow Baby day

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While their marriage has had itsups and downs, Otis said she and her husband look forward to expanding their family in the future.

“I just know in my heart I am supposed to have more children. I genuinely don’t feel like our family is complete yet,” she added. “It’s hard to explain, but I have this really strong feeling that I’m meant to have more children living on earth & being part of this little family we’ve created.🙏🙏🙏⁣”

source: people.com