Safiyya Vorajeeis reflecting on the death of her 8-month-old daughterAzaylia Diamondnearly one week after the heartbreaking loss.
On Friday, Vorajee — who shared Azaylia with her partner,The ChallengestarAshley Cain— posted a candid message on her Instagram Story in which she described the ongoing pain she feels following the death of her young daughter on April 24.
“Trying to get myself out of bed in the morning has never felt so hard,” Vorajee wrote alongside a picture of her laying in her pajamas. “The pain that hits me when my eyes open is unbearable, I just want this all to have been a dream. I miss you Azaylia 😢👼🧡”
Vorajee also reposted a past photo of her cradling Azaylia, who died following amonths-long battle with leukemia, writing “1 week today this was all happening, 😢 "
“You are so incredible Azaylia, you have changed My life 🧡 Honestly I feel so proud of you, I am lost without you but I [know] your with me close all the time 🧡,” she added.
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The former pro soccer player, 30, shared a picture of an already-lit red candle placed in between twoLion Kingstuffed animals, one of which was embroidered with an “A” initial.
“Tonight we lit a candle in the chapel of rest to join others in lighting up the world in honour of my beautiful daughter Azaylia ❤️🕯,” Cain wrote.
“Light the world Azaylia 🧡 I love you,” Vorajee shared alongside a photo of the burning candle.
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“I would like to take a moment out of my day to thank each and everyone of you for your heart felt messages, amazing videos that you have created for us,” she began in a statement on her Instagram Stories. “It’s so beautiful.”
“Everyday is getting harder but Azaylia taught me strength, and courage which she held 100% now I need to make her proud and do the same,” Vorajee continued. “A special Thankyou to beautiful Azaylia for teaching all of us the true meaning of life.”
In February, Cain said the family was “urgently informed thatAzaylia’s leukemia had returned” moments before she was due to leave the hospital aftera stem-cell transplantation
Earlier this month, Cain and Vorajee announced devastating news that doctors hadfound numerous tumors throughout Azaylia’s body, making it extremely difficult for her to receive further cancer treatments.
As a result, Cain said, the couple decided to take Azaylia home from in-patient care to “give her the best rest of her life that we can give her.”.
source: people.com
